i might switch to a new blog. nasasawa nako dito e. i'll tell you as soon as possible kung meron nako. ok? see ya!

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i was talking nonsense on my previous post. i'm just letting out what i feel inside.

you may call me silly or what, but i just want to pour outbirst my feelings. I can't keep it to myself.

Sorry if I have offended anyone.

I stand on what I believe in. This is what God has given because He thinks it's the best. And no one can understimate what God gave me.

What if God gave you a precious gift, but you did not accept it because you might not need it or it's not important. Hey! This is what God gave you. It's specially for you. Kapag hindi mo tinanggap, parang sinampal mo ang Diyos sa pisngi niya.

I am thankful for where I am right now. And in return, I will do all my best to give God the best in lieu for His glorification.




P.S.

I've got friends who underestimate Benilde. They say people from Benilde are stupid. You, I presume, may also think that way, too. Me, I don't believe that. I am proud to be a Benildean.

At the NCAA games, honestly, only a few supports Benilde. And it is true that we suck in basketball. You see, in this season, we never won a tournament. Not one. Just because of that, people say that Benildeans suck? That's propesterous.

We may suck in basketball, but Benilde never suck in education. Maybe San Beda does (sorry to say).
And my friend thinks that San Beda is an elite school. I don't think so! The only elite schools are Ateneo, UP, and La Salle.

Maybe people from San Beda are social climbers. And my friend said that San Beda is another version of ATENEO. What???!!! Maybe in terms of basketball. But in reality, I don't think so. Maybe because San Beda is best qualified for law. Just that. Big deal 'no?

All these that my friend said are plain opinions.

In my course, there are three majors to choose from: Culinary Arts, Hospitality Management, and Tourism. From the three, I don't know what to take. I'm excluding Tourism because I'm not quite interested in it. I'm thinking about Culinary Arts or Hospitality Management.
  

LISTEN
Stonefree

Close the door. I feel a breeze.
Hold me please. I hate to be alone.
It’s a cold night. Turn off the lights.
Take my hand and…

Listen to these things I have to say.
Please understand, she left me all alone again.

Clear the room of every memory.
I don’t want our song back on.
This is an endless maze. Take away this haze.
Mend my heart and…

Turn away. Don’t want you to see me cry.
Well I just want things the way they were.
Why is it so hard to say good bye.
Now wipe my tears and…

So this I ask of you…
Please stay with me until she comes back.
Oh… until she comes, until she comes back

My teacher in GEPSYCH made us watch a video tape about "Maya: The Lost Civilization". It is a documentary about how the Maya's disappeared and is more about a research of their culture.

They have frightful traits. Part of their tradition is get drunk until they fall off the floor and take drugs.
Their culture is just different. It is a tradition that their gods and goddesses would go through blood-letting from their tongue and genitals because that represents the salvation of their people.

But there was something that strucked me. The Mayas have their own calendar. It is in a form of a wheel that spaces in between each small slegde. That wheel continues to roll until one day it will stop - which means its the end of the world. The narrator said the wheel will stop rolling on December 23, 2012, which means the world will end exactly on that date.

I don't know if I have to believe it. Now that I know that God holds my life, I need not to worry. God will keep me safe and sound. I fully trust Him. There's no need to fear for we must fear nothing but God only.

There are tons of problems that are entering into our lives. Then I wonder if this one of God's trials to us. If another problem rises, I isolate myself and surrender those problems to God. God is bigger than our problems. When I prayed to Him, and surrendered everything to Him, the burden from my head lessened. Whenever a problem occurs, I think it through in my head; then my head starts to ache. But during the time I was praying evrything began to lighten up. That was the time before dinner started.

Then I began to think if God did put up that problem on purpose. Because when a problem rises, I always run to God. Now, if there is a problem, that's the only time I consult Him. I don't want to consulty Him only if I have a problem; I want to run to Him at any time, at any moment. Maybe God did put up that problem because He wants me to go to Him at no time.

I think I learned another from God again.

Last Wednesday I went to La Salle because of CCC (Campus Crusade for Christ). The speaker told us that we are led by the Holy Spirit if we rely or read His Word. If you don't read His Word, then how will you be led by the Holy Spirit?

God is teaching me something here. Days have passed and it has been a long time since I haven't read His Word. God wants to lead me. But then, how could that happen if I do not read the Word?

I've been trying my best to set a time for myself to spare thirty minutes or an hour for a deep fellowship with God.
I read the book of Proverbs and that book is my mirror. All the things that God has spoken there reflected on my personality. Every verse that God spoke had blown me away for many reasons. First, I felt guilty, then later on I realized it is the wisdom that God has bestowed upon me.

God wants to lead my life the way He wanted it. He is in control of my life. I don't hold my life. God holds my life, and I have nothing against that. whatever plans He has for me, His will be done. Let HIM be glorified for He deserves everything from me.

All He wants is me to be led by Him, the Holy Spirit. So I must read His Word every now and then.

God is the greatest teacher of all...

I was on my way home in the bus when I realized how frank I am to some of my friends. I didn't realize how the words hit them thoroughly, so I said to myself that I must discipline my tounge. If not, or else, I would lose the people I love and I might even lose my friends.

A lot of people have realized how frank I am. The words I say are very sharp. The words I utter might destroy someone's identity and I shall take responsible for that. So whatever I say, I must guard my tongue. I should think first before I speak. Words are painful.

In Proverbs 21:23 it is said: "He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from calamity."

In the bus, I also realized how much I've known myself better. College is a different world you know, and your personality reflects from the people your with.

I've been hearing comments from my friends and I began to think how worse I am. Frank it is, but I think I could also be vain. My life may lead to danger if I don't discipline myself.

The reactions of my friends from what they hear from me may also be painful to me. They think that I don't care whatever words may speak from my mouth; but once my brain recalls to the words I've said, I myself gets hurt either. But nevertheless, I say sorry to my friend.

And I realize how slowly I am transforming. I have known myself more and more and the way I think and reason affects me. It's like I'm slowly leaving my old self behind. I hope it gets better and better. I only get crazy when I'm lazy, depressed, or being unreasonable sometimes. Once you have known yourself you'll realize the you are being mature. I think that's what college life makes you: being mature on your own self. But, whatever it is, I shall know myself more and more. In high school I was a girl who barely knows her identity. Now, that I'm in college, I'm beginning to know myself better.

 

it will be sixteen days from now and i'll be turning 18. i learned this afternoon that a chold is anyone who is under the age of 18. so, in fact, i'm not a child anymore. it was also said the the major age in the Philippines is 18 years old. i will be legal in a number of days already.

the week after my birthday is our finals already. how time flies! before it was only the first day in class and now, second term is on its way! everything's running so fast. before, i am still adjusting in the college life; now, i'm so used to crossing the streets of Taft intercepting with the cars.